Guilty of Gloomy

So, I've been realizing lately that sometimes I confuse emotion with the Holy Spirit. Let me backtrack a little. So, Daniel and I made the observation that we were starting to act less like friends and more like we were going out again. We got that all fixed up and what not. So, the next day, I was a mess and I had myself convinced that I had no reason to be sad. After all, it wasn't like we were going out or anything. I was sure I was feeling convicted of something and I just could not figure out what. So, after what seemed like an eternity of crying in the back office at work, I really thought and prayed about it. I also thought about what my boss had said that sometimes we think we are being convicted of something and it's our own emotion or even Satan trying to distract me. I finally realized that I had cut out all the things that I was used to with Daniel and that it really was almost like breaking up all over again. And then I realized I hadn't even mourned the first time really. I had put my own grieving on the back burner because I thought that's what everyone expected of me, when it was really only what I expected of myself.

Gustav

First of all, I would like to start out by saying, that is a great name for a hurricane. Anyways, so this last Sunday in church, somebody brought up the need to pray for the people in New Orleans because of Hurricane/Tropical Storm Gustav. So Mr. Wells asked one of the nice old men in our church to pray for those people. This nice old man stood up and prayed for a safe evacuation and that the damage wouldn't be too bad. The whole time I was supposed to be agreeing in prayer I was thinking, "Wait a second! We are praying to the God of the Universe, why don't we just pray that the hurricane miss New Orleans. He can do it you know!" So, I turned to Kenny and Daniel after service and brought this up and they said I should pray for that so I did. The next morning, my dad turned on the news and it said that Gustav had missed New Orleans and even though flooding was still a concern, it was down to a Category 1 storm. Now, even if the storm had hit, isn't it good to know that God could stop it or reroute it if he chose. Or that God knows each person that will be personally effected by a store like this. God is Good all the time.